Friday, January 26

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

lil max wept at 1:56 AM

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Thursday, January 18

It wuz onli dis wed when i went 4 a job interview 4 work & got hired 4 it..haha...Work wud onli starts frm next week onwards...flashing back d not so long ago when sch was still on....things was a lil wild but those time juz seems to slip too fast!!! Lyk frm the song dat sung "frm the cradle to the grave" ~ Won't life be soo monotonous IF we were born to dis world frm young we go 2 schs, colleges, unis den WORK..WORK n well more WORK???...sad but true, ppl tends to leave out the moments when dey are toddlers where dey are soo carefree & innocent..

Later on dat wed's since d Christian Boot Camp is CANCELLED!!! Pls no more questions n prayers on dat for me cuz it's really annoying....Unc Dennis, d chairman, after Prayer's meeting told me dat since i'll b sooo free until mayb wen my results are out, he suggested dat mayb he cud arrange something between me & Aunty Florence Jee on some activites (mayb something similar to boot camp) He added dat i can join d Pastoral Ministry & den i was *gag me* (Ppl in church has been pulling my legs ever since sch is out...d youth ministry, sun sch ministry, prayer's ministry, line-dance ministry, chinese ministry, worship ministry, young adults/adults ministry & now Pastoral ministry..actually i'm surprised y evangelistic ministry didn't ask me..see dat's a major problem every1's lyk on a *grab max while he's still "alive" * operation ) Lyk i said scary....

In additional to dat, on thurs....halfway after line-dancing i set my hp alarm so dat i may attend d Greek class not geek class okay?? it's Greek!!!! Okay, cut d nonsense...-_- i was den packed ready 2 descend down to Logie but i discover d room was locked up AGAIN juz lyk last week...so instead of going home str8 i waited downstairs on d bench waiting for something to happen rather den someone....hoping dat someone wud come & open d Logie soon...to my surprise...i met Aunty Betty...we had a brief.. ok..ok..a rather long talk about alot of things....den she was frustated wif d Pastoral meeting sayin dat dey is suppose 2 haf d meeting at Logie at 7.30...Guess wat..yeapz u got it rite...Greek class wud definitely be cancelled den rite? *Sigh* was den planning to go str8 home after d conversation but sumthin or somehow i was hold back...so instead of going str8 home i wuz invited by aunty betty 2 join their private & confidental pastoral committee meeting which consists of 6 ppl; Rev Stephen Wong, Unc Martin, Unc Anson, Unc Leung, Aunty Rose & Aunty Betty..oh yeah plus me which makes dat 7 ppl..i was told by Aunty Betty...my own aunty dat d meeting wud onli take awhile soo...i tag along since it won't take long & she promise 2 sent me back after all dat...noeing all these discussion in d meeting are to be kept within those 4 walls soo i kept 2 myself most of the tym & was seriously BORED....AND to think Unc Dennis was planning 2 place me into joining d Pastoral Ministry *gag me more* but no offense really..mayb when things turn gray & old for me i might join dat ministry but now...i'll rather live life n enjoy it b4 all d fun has left d kick....

N dis entire week i wuz fill wif anxiety & worry attacks so much of it frm preparing d comin youth cell bible study & object lesson..plus d comin sun where bof Aunty Helen & Unc Geoffrey are requesting & expecting me to join their Chinese ministry service * gag me again* i dislike chinese but *sigh* wat to do....-_- ask me 2 do Chinese scripture reading...all to find out dat it was changed to some1 else all the same dat bof of em are expecting me & my bro 2 b downstairs joining em..Unc Geoffrey wanted me 2 join more of the chinese services so dat i can get use 2 it...*blueks* He pressed on sayin dat dis sun there wud b a veli annointed preacher/speaker wud b attendin their service...*SIGH* which makes it harder 2 decline their request...But my lucky brother gets 2 escape coz he has support singer duty on dat day leavin me alone in dat "scary" place...Did i mention Sun sch promotes me as a sun sch teacher & their notes or reference or shud i say guidelines 2 teach are extremely hard 2 understand let alone teach these lil kidz abt it??? hMm... Shud i take aspirins & antacids for stuff lidat?? I'd been considering it 4 quite sometym coz those problems, attacks more frequently nowadays.....Those reading these might think y all those abt anxiety & worry attacks gt 2 do wif me taking those medicine...actually dey are not related...lol.... =p

Today as usual....i had been trying 2 clean up room which is fill wif dusts thick enuf 2 write ur name as tho ur writing on d sand...had abt 40% of it done...oh well..it's nt easy living a dust filled room rite? Den again i'm gonna joined Canaan Hcell l8r...hopin unc kriz wud help me clear d uncertainties which i-don't-understand areas & also aunty ting, wif d darn sun sch guideline base teaching books 4 teachers..dat's all 4 now i guess...

lil max wept at 9:56 PM

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Monday, January 8

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You're Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days
All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
Forevermore

lil max wept at 6:34 PM

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Monday, January 1

Juz g8, 2molo i wud hafta go 4 an intensive christian boot camp & here i am down wif illness...well, it's a "nice" way of startin d new year...d camp dat i'm headed 2 2molo wud be a 7 weeks long camp....we wud b place at ACC [Anglican Communications Centre] , Kuching. Guess wat? I manage 2 skip away frm National Service but i haf a feeling dat dis camp seems 2 b much tougher den NS...according to d notes given frm d organisers, dey indicate dat students hafta wash their own clothes n cook their own meals...how "fun" is dat? Mayb be d activities in d camp wud be interesting..who noes rite? Mission work given 2 us to experience how life as a missionary is lyk...sounds interesting hmm? no? Well, i guess i better not jump into any conclusion b4 i have gone thru d entire thing...Btw did i said dat Unc Dennis wanted me 2 write a report after i come back frm d camp...? He oso wanted me 2 take snapshots of d activities dat r gonna take place during d camp....Muz b a lucky break....3rd of Jan to 1st of Mar....haha...;D i guess many of d youths esp those hu r still schlin wud b feel a bit hard 2 start their day esp on d 3rd of Jan wen sch reopens....haha...no more sch 4 me but as 4 em well...it's juz d process of learning n growing up i guess....All d best 2 those youths n frenz out there taking PMR & SPM dis yr!!!! I recall i made a survey n dis yr many youths r havin public exams....Kampatei to all of u...God Bless

lil max wept at 6:59 PM

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